and the rest of my life starts.....NOW!!

so many questions, thoughts running through my head right now i feel like i might explode!! matt and i are SOOO ready to start the rest of our lives together... and the light at the end of the tunnel seems to be three years away.
one of the BIGGEST questions is how we are going to pay our bills off and save for our wedding. my family says they are going to help out, but they cant pay for the ENTIRE thing. im not wanting a big fancy shindig that costs $30,000. we have a verrrry modest budget in mind, but even that, along with all the planning seems so daunting. i have ALWAYS dreamed of getting married in a church with all my loved ones and having a reception to party down! i am only getting married ONCE in my life.. but it would be so much easier to elope, or have a teeny tiny ceremony with our immediate families and BEST of friends...
Another reason why matt and i are re-thinking having a wedding is to in order to save and have the wedding we want it will be 2-3 years from now! we cant wait that long.. its an indescribable feeling, that you are ready to start your life with the one you love and have to wait years in order to do so. gut wrenching is the best term to be completely honest.. and my mom has been in mexico since last thursday and matt and i have been playing house again. we mesh SO well when we live together, we always have a blast, and that is why we miss living together soooo much.

on a positive note, matt and i are going to go look at apartments in corona on thursday. i showed my mom some of the apts we were looking at and she loved them! she is all for us moving out there, and family support is exactly what we need right now.

as of right now, we are not sure exactly what we are going to do... the only thing i know for certain is that i love him, he loves me and we are spending the rest of our lives together... hopefully MUCH sooner than later.