she works hard for the moneys...

that is how im going to feel after my 6 day straight work week is finished.

well its about that time again...
anniversary sale time, wooop.
i have to be up at 5:15am, leave at 5:45, and get to work by 6:30 for matty, then i start at 7:00.
but it could be worse, way worse. i could be working in the stores, and running around for 12 hours. instead, i am going to be sitting at my cute little cubicle, relaxing my feet, and mostly, taking phone calls from the stores.. can i get a AMENN!
and they feed us too, for the WHOLE weekend!
tomorrow is pizza hut, saturday is chick-fil-a,
and sunday is some mexican food place. also, no 12 hour shift for me. nope. i go in at 7, and i believe i leave at 4 or 430. i absolutely LOVE my job. the best part is the people that work next to me. we just bs between calls and laugh. its pretty frickin awesome. anddd when i look to my right, 20 feet or so, i get to see little mattys head. its cute:]

ive also been having some crazy, vivid dreams, and ive looked them up to see exactly what they mean. and of course, all of my dreams pertain to a part of me growing up and/or moving into a new chapter of my life. its creepy because that is completely true for me. but the dream i had last night was so vivid, so real, i woke up, looked around, and immediately started crying. it was the ugliest feeling i have ever felt. i hope i never have a dream that real and vivid again, it was traumatizing to say the least...

i believe that is it for now, but i still cant WAIT to marry matty. good night.

oh and this picture is just for good measure...

come what may...

so life just keeps getting better and better.
both my sisters are SO excited for matt and i. my mom is also very thrilled, she even offered to buy my wedding dress, among other things. my sisters are throwing me my bridal shower and my bachelorette party. which mine and matts bachelor party will be in VEGAS! were super stoked about that. also narrowing the guest list down to a more intimate number, allows us to spend more money in other areas, such as a really nice venue... which is the most important part of our wedding, in my opinion. right now were thinking a country club.. as long as there is a dance floor im pretty much set!!
matt also picked up my engagement ring today, and no i have not seen it. the day i picked it out is the last time i will see it until he proposes, ugh i want to see it so bad! even just a little peek, but no! hmmph.
i feel so utterly ridiculous, i constantly have butterflies in my stomach, everything i think of turns into something about matt and i, or our wedding. all i want to listen to are romantic songs, especially etta james, at last... and i cant help but smile 24/7.. its so silly! i guess the only way i could describe it is, i am utterly, hopelessly, and madly in love.
words cant describe how ecstatic i am right now. i am about to embark on a new chapter in my life, and i know that matt, my family, and friends are all there for me whenever i need. in less than three years, i will make the biggest commitment of my life, and i could be any happier than i am right now...

and this song right here, has THE most romantic/amazing lyrics.. even though it is avenged sevenfold, the lyrics make me want to cry every friggin time, i know ridiculous..

i'll never feel alone again with you by my side
You're the one and in you I confide

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your love has always been true as can be

I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you

wedding fever...

so we are not "officially engaged" yet but wedding talk is in full force!
poor little unsuspecting matty had no idea what he was getting himself into yesterday.. we went to visit my sister for the day, we were going to go swimming but it was cloudy. so we went to lunch at south coast, then walked around and went to the book store.. and of course i go by the section of dozens of bridal magazines. mind you my sister does not know that matt had bought our rings.. so i just came out with it... and it was amazing to have someone so supportive. and she knows after talking with us that we are ready for it.
for starters:
were going to have a 2-3 year engagement.
in that time we are living apart, and saving, for our wedding and a nest egg for after.
we love one another unconditionally, and are working hard to make our dream a reality.
so as soon as i told her, it snow balled into, overall a 5 hour conversation about getting engaged, the wedding, our life after.. you name it, we covered it. then we went back to her house, i showed her my ring, and then that led to everything a wedding entails. we at least found an AWESOME bridesmaid dress, that on davids bridal, 55 out 55 people recommend it. we also decided that having a very very small wedding would be in the best interest for us. were talking 50 people max.. as much as matt and i want to have everyone there that we love, we just cant afford that.. and then it goes into, we didnt invite so and so, but we invited so and so. we want to avoid as much drama as possible. so were only inviting our immediate families, and our CLOSEST friends. a good solution of still having people we care about included in the wedding process is myself, having a big bridal shower. so all the girls that i would not be able to invite to the wedding would come to the bridal shower.
we also decided that we are moving to denver for about 4 years, and that moving back to cali. the money we will be saving on rent, will go into a savings that we can use when we move back and apply towards a down payment for our home. that will also be around the time we will want to have kids, and our kids have to know their grandparents and family, that is a MUST.

yup, all that figured out yesterday.. my brain is reaching maximum capacity with all this wedding stuff. but just knowing that my family is going to be their to support us through everything, is so reassuring, and makes the wedding planning process seem less stressful.

well im off to go wake up my little sleeping beauty, god i cant wait to marry hiM!!

at last...

so i am not quite sure what i did to deserve matt..
he is everything i could ever want and more..
and now that we are finally planning our future together, it all seems so surreal.
we finally decided what songs were going to play during what: our slideshow, the song the wedding party walks down to, the song i walk down to, the song after were officially married, and the first dance..
and this is just the beginning of all our planning.. it is a little more overwhelming then i thought, but yet so exciting at the same time...
i wont post a picture of my engagement ring/wedding ring yet, even though i have already picked them out, and matt has already purchased them. i wont do that until he officially proposes, but i will assure you, they are GORGEOUS. my dream rings and i could not be any happier. i showed my mom and she absolutely loved it! i know he is planning the proposal right now, and that is all i know... the best part of the whole "ring buying" experience is that we were not even looking for my rings yet. we went to the brea mall to buy matt pants. we passed by kay jewelers and decided to get my promise ring cleaned... and then i browsed and the sales people hooked us, it was ridiculous. next thing we know, matt bought my engagement and wedding ring, and his wedding band! it was honestly like a scene out of a movie, it happened that fast!
and even though i have been dreaming of this moment my whole life, and i have been with matt for over 4 years, i still get butterflies and get really nervous just thinking about it. but its a really good nervous, not a bad one, nonetheless, it is a nervous...
matt and i have been wanting to get married since i was in high school, and now its all coming along, i feel like im in a fairy tale, and that my prince charming is going to marry me and we are going to live happily ever after....