where does the time go..

i stumbled upon old journal entries and pictures i had forgotten about. and yes that is me as a baby, i was pretty adorable, not gunna lie.
its just so crazy how time flies by.. matt and i have been together for FIVE YEARS. seriously, whoa thats so long, i feel so old!! we were 17 when we met now im going to be 22. its funny, even at 18 years old, i knew that matt was the one. this old entry from May 2005 explains it all...

well i have been going through a lot lately.
and that is an understatement.
so many things have been happening
and all at once.
ive been so overwhelmed by all the negative
that i let it take over me..
and by doing so, i couldnt see the positive..
of course the posi wins,
but unfortunately it took me a little longer to see that.
i am so utterly grateful and blessed to have matthew in my life.
he is so unbelievably caring, that even i get blown away sometimes.
whenever i fall, he is always there no matter what to catch me.
i always have a shoulder to cry on.
i have my own personal cheerleader, that supports me in everything i do.

even though my faith has been the weakest in a very long time, i know that god has put matthew in my life for a reason. i know that he is my guardian angel that watches over me and protects me. he is like a best friend/boyfriend/protector/everything all rolled into one. this may sound totally cheesy, but i dont care, not in the least bit.

i KNOW in my heart, that i have found the man im going to marry. the one im going to have kids with, grow old and wrinkly with and sit in a rocking chair while i knit and he watches tv. and i cant think of anything better.

this is for you honey. thank you from the bottom of my heart for being there for me during this rough time. you have been so kind and understanding, even when i didnt deserve it. i love you with everything i am and there is never a moment that goes by that i dont thank god for giving me such a blessing, for giving me you.

i hear this song and i cant help but think of you...

Bless your heart, youve made me happy again
Its been so long and Im sick of pretending
Youve enlighted the pain in my heart

Cuz I'm doing everything for you
Cuz I love to be near to you
Something just takes me away to a place where I'm happy
Cuz I'm doing everything for you
Yeah you know that I adore you
and I just can't take it anymore



i love you
always and forever

i feel like im taking a trip down memory lane...
i remember the brand new song, Soco Amaretto Lime used to be my anthem! and i was even too young for it, since i wasnt 18.. now im old! ah!

in lieu of memory lane.. im going to post some old pictures that take me back!

i remember i was SOO happy to see them. it was august '04 and we saw rilo kiley in a tiny little record shop and they performed acoustic not more than a foot in front of us..

and this was my last prom. i had just gotten my promise ring from matthew a few months prior. and matt picked out the corsage, and i was SO impressed!
this was one of my best friends in high school. she lives in another state and is now married.
and here is one of my best friends casey and out of all my friends from high school, hes one of the only few i still talk to. this was one of the last few days of high school, we were in english class.

now im an adult. almost 22. i work full time. i live with my fiancee and am planning to get married.
as much as i hated high school, and even though i still have dreams of failing tests, ditching school and not graduating, i wish i could go back. just temporarily. and do everything right. that time in my life was so crazy, so much family drama, drama with friends, i wish it was as fun and carefree as most people have it.
but when its all said and done, all of my decisions have lead me here, to where i am today.
i love my husband to be, and even though sometimes he doesnt listen, like how he didnt take the trash out today.. he was made for me, and im as happy as a clam:]