come what may...

so life just keeps getting better and better.
both my sisters are SO excited for matt and i. my mom is also very thrilled, she even offered to buy my wedding dress, among other things. my sisters are throwing me my bridal shower and my bachelorette party. which mine and matts bachelor party will be in VEGAS! were super stoked about that. also narrowing the guest list down to a more intimate number, allows us to spend more money in other areas, such as a really nice venue... which is the most important part of our wedding, in my opinion. right now were thinking a country club.. as long as there is a dance floor im pretty much set!!
matt also picked up my engagement ring today, and no i have not seen it. the day i picked it out is the last time i will see it until he proposes, ugh i want to see it so bad! even just a little peek, but no! hmmph.
i feel so utterly ridiculous, i constantly have butterflies in my stomach, everything i think of turns into something about matt and i, or our wedding. all i want to listen to are romantic songs, especially etta james, at last... and i cant help but smile 24/7.. its so silly! i guess the only way i could describe it is, i am utterly, hopelessly, and madly in love.
words cant describe how ecstatic i am right now. i am about to embark on a new chapter in my life, and i know that matt, my family, and friends are all there for me whenever i need. in less than three years, i will make the biggest commitment of my life, and i could be any happier than i am right now...

and this song right here, has THE most romantic/amazing lyrics.. even though it is avenged sevenfold, the lyrics make me want to cry every friggin time, i know ridiculous..

i'll never feel alone again with you by my side
You're the one and in you I confide

And we have gone through good and bad times
But your unconditional love was always on my mind
You've been there from the start for me
And your love has always been true as can be

I'll give my heart to you, I give my heart
Cause nothing can compare in this world to you